Juz liked this foto....everyone had their own "look"
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Thump...thump..thump...thump.....
That's the sound of my heartbeat, going faster than it seems. I have shifted from my beloved boon lay jungle, to the novena town. It's closing to two weeks that I have shifted to my new-found "home". One thing's not changed - CONSTRUCTION sites. Why am I faced with them so often? God knows.
Each day I come to work, at times with fear and trembling, at not knowing what to expect, who I am to meet. I asked for a job that is challenging. Boy was that prayer answered! There isn't much guidance in this job. I am given the expected outcome, and various contacts whom I may liaise with. The rest of the work - look for a way out yourself. Hence my last week, and I believe, upcoming weeks ahead of reading, reading and reading. Next, observing, observing, observing. At the same time, whoever I could get hold of, I started to ask all sorts of questions. Of course in the midst of this, there were dumb questions asked. But what the heck, better to ask anyway. Kiasu spirit in me working hard.
There's this weird drive within me at this workplace. Yes, the pressure is a big difference as compared with the past, yet there's this thing in me that makes me tick. Tiredness has seeped in greatly - in my bid to balance the various aspects of my life. Yet, there's this satisfaction that surfaces. Wonder if this will end? Whether I'd stop feeling this way as reality sets in?
In all these, I see how the entire situation was set out in front of me. How my life has been finely and intricately planned. Just like how I was made. At this moment, at this point in time, I am marvelling at how I managed to get to this point in the first place. Yet, also looking ahead to what I am set to accomplish here. A purpose, which I am still discovering the mysteries to it.
Each day I come to work, at times with fear and trembling, at not knowing what to expect, who I am to meet. I asked for a job that is challenging. Boy was that prayer answered! There isn't much guidance in this job. I am given the expected outcome, and various contacts whom I may liaise with. The rest of the work - look for a way out yourself. Hence my last week, and I believe, upcoming weeks ahead of reading, reading and reading. Next, observing, observing, observing. At the same time, whoever I could get hold of, I started to ask all sorts of questions. Of course in the midst of this, there were dumb questions asked. But what the heck, better to ask anyway. Kiasu spirit in me working hard.
There's this weird drive within me at this workplace. Yes, the pressure is a big difference as compared with the past, yet there's this thing in me that makes me tick. Tiredness has seeped in greatly - in my bid to balance the various aspects of my life. Yet, there's this satisfaction that surfaces. Wonder if this will end? Whether I'd stop feeling this way as reality sets in?
In all these, I see how the entire situation was set out in front of me. How my life has been finely and intricately planned. Just like how I was made. At this moment, at this point in time, I am marvelling at how I managed to get to this point in the first place. Yet, also looking ahead to what I am set to accomplish here. A purpose, which I am still discovering the mysteries to it.
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