Why?

Have a lot of questions on something. Hold back to ask.

Feel a lot for something. But not to the extreme. Hold back to feel all the way.

Why the holding back? What's stopping it to go all the way?

Do I know?

Question

How do you receive sympathy?

This is a question that was posed to me recently. Is there a right or a wrong way? Why the question in the first place?

Life is already a maze to figure out. We do not always have the bird's eye view, but a question like that, makes it even much more puzzling. Much more into the question, why does one need to ask how to receive it? Is there a particular way to receive it?

The education I received gave me the other way of asking it. How to provide sympathy for people? The model of grief - what to say, or not to say to someone grieving.

In a situation where the outcome is not favorable to a person, sympathy comes naturally. It is also something that the person needs, yet to a considerable extent. There isn't any right or wrong rule to it. Probably, a matter of, does the sympathy-giver care? I think, if care and love is the motivation, this question, is probably redundant? The one giving sympathy should stand in the position of the one needing it? This would mean the person thinking for the other. Hence, why this question in the first place?

Sadness.Comfort.Gladness

In food terminology, i feel like rojak now. All mixed up, sticky, black, liquidity, yet also certain parts hard, some wet, some dry. Alright. I'm just mixed up within.

Things that happened in my life I've always believed that there's a purpose for it. This one is no different.

Yet in this time, there's a calmness. A hope. A sense of peace and comfort. A lot of things are not explainable. I think that's very Him. A source of peace in a time of turmoil. A time where answers are not able to be found that quickly, but to pray that everything will turn out fine. That's where my gladness is found.That's where I know, that I've made the right choice about something.

MAS Lunch Meeting!

Haha! It finally happened! Our University Support Ministry's Manpower, Administration & Stewardship Department (what a mouthful) met up for lunch!

Slurp...really enjoyed the time...It's just so rare that we are not facing the computer, accounts, email, etc, etc....

Ramblings

Reading: Lies women believe, And, The Truth that sets them Free. I've been lying to myself, everyday, every minute, yet, I didn't know! The biggest liar of all? My mind. Ha.

I can't help grinning at some pictures that were sent through my email. There's only that someone who would know why. I can't imagine what else will there be tonite? ;p

Emily Rose: Yessssssh, I want to watch this!!! But coordination seems like forever....

Yeah, this is incoherent, but what the heck, it's the weekend!!!!! I need to get out of office!! Then again, do I? GACI - so many things to prepare....:S

Oh, whatever, in the end, one thing - God is good! Smile.

Wide-open wonder

I was on MRT this morning, wearing mismatched slippers with a formal looking outfit. I had no choice. I had left my heels in office in a haste to get to the tutorial rooms yesterday, hence my weird lookingness this morning.

To top it off, I was super duperly sleepy, as I sent princesse off to Shanghai late last night, rather, it was early, early this morning. I don't know if it was the way I slept, the way I looked whilst I slept, or was I drooling (don't feel wet though!), but this fella opposite me was looking at me with wide-opened wonder when I woke up due to the jerk of the MRT. BUT, I just didn't care! You could look all you want! I need sleep! I finally woke at Boon Lay, again to his wide-opened wonder look. Alright, probably he just has that kind of look!

My mind was filled with what princesse told me yesterday on her trip to Bangkok, hill tribes to visit the churches there. I was utterly encouraged by the testimonies, stories and experiences shared. What really, really encouraged me was - princesse has grown up! I was so warmed by her stories the whole night, if not for that early boarding time on SQ, wished we could talk so much more.

Simple stories, and simple heart of serving our loving God.

A pastor in the church had a very bad curvature on his leg, making it so hard for him to walk. Yet, he looks at it as an encouragement to others instead of a flaw. For with his physicalities, he serves the Lord wholeheartedly, why not the rest? "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" 1 Cor 12:9

In a village with no electricity and proper water supply, a pastor consistently visited his neighbour to share the goodness of God. How? By walking 20KM of terrain to the neighbouring hilltribe. He did so for two years, and finally, saw the neighbours coming to experience the love of our Lord. I'm touched by that simple heart to bring across the love of God to the others. Despite all the lousy infrastructure, long distances travelled, outcaste treatment (natives of hilltribes are termed to be a lower status than their city counterparts), they all had one commonality - to love Him with all their heart, all their soul and all their strength and all their mind.

Of Beauty Regimes & God

When I was beleaguered and bitter,
totally consumed by envy,
I was totally ignorant, a dumb ox
in your very presence.
I'm still in your presence,
but you've taken my hand.
You wisely and tenderly lead me,
and then you bless me.
You're all I want in heaven!
You're all I want on earth!
When my skin sags and my bones get brittle,
GOD is rock-firm and faithful.

Ps 73:21-26 (MSG)

Something that caught my attention today...a dumb ox in your very presence - something very true to me...I am just like that at times.. don't get the full picture, but keep going head-strong...using brute force, speech, etc. After it all, I'd just take a step back, and then literally LAUGH at my foolishness. And, I'm doing all this in the presence of a holy God. His patience is just so great.

In NIV, verse 26 reads, My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. In the message version, how direct and clear cut...skin sagging and bones gettin brittle (2 of the fears of women), He still remains firm and faithful.Irregardless of what I am like inside (my heart attitude) and outside (how I look). Indeed, that's all I need. That assurance from Him. That very acceptance.

Essence to keep me going and admiring the beauty of the works of His. A moment with Him in the morning, brings me a long way.

Reminisce

The clock struck ten past five, and I made my way to prepare some soup for some people mugging in the south spine of where I was working. It had been some time since I have made such soup, and seriously, I was just hoping that the prayers work - that He will help me make good soup, or else, at least protect their stomachs, or even better, provide them with taste buds that won't tell that the soup tastes bad!

An hour later, it was ready, and I made my way to the place. It had been some time since I have walked the corridors of this familiar place. The reddish rectangular tiles, the black benches along the lecture halls, the dim lights and the never-ending carpark. I had spent some good three years in this place studying. Each nook had a story to tell. One which brings me back to the various project discussions, another the haven of all of most of us where we rushed our FYP, yet another where my bimbo HR group surprisingly managed to come up with some commendable presentations. Yes, it was all coming back to me.

I reached the place, greeted by some familiar faces and some not so familiar ones. It was good to see them once again. The examination period is a time where the family bonding in this group grows by leaps and bounds. The whole place looked like a home - hot water flasks, sleeping bags, and the well - stocked "provision stall" marked the decor of the seminar room.

After some chatting, guitar playing, crapping and all that sort, here I am, typing out the very thoughts that came. Here I am, sitting in a tutorial room where I used to have my lessons, only now that, I am blogging instead of preparing my reports. It's all so different now. How I wished I was back studying again.

It was good memory though....

Nothin' but the whole truth

" U just let all ur emotions take over now....Ur emotions r eating up everything of u..And much of it isn't even true!"

Yup, how true it is. I needed it. Thank you for being so frank with me, and putting up with all my nonsense.

I am really blessed to know you.