Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Sense of Euphoria

Euphoria - a feeling of happiness, confidence, or well-being sometimes exaggerated in pathological states as mania.

Sometimes, I find myself in such a state. Interestingly, I don't know why. One thing I know though, whenever I come to this state, I know that the other state of near depression will be upcoming. It is just that extreme.

What causes the swing? To know that you initially feel so good, so confident about something, or someone. After a while, one starts to fear...fear the loss that is impending...fear the uncertainty that can happen anytime. Everything starts to erode the euphoric state, and a state of being gripped by uncertainty sets in...leading to the extreme of depression.

I guess, that's how a mind without the framework of God's words, and the assurance of Him works. It is just that fragile. We can be all loony and high in a while, and in the next spilt second, we just crumble under the weight of all the "what ifs". Gosh, life is really hard without Him, and His assurance.

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