CrossRoads

It's been five years. Five years of a clearer understanding of why I am here, why I am created this way, why the decision I made five years ago was and still is the best decision that I can ever make in my lifetime.

Five years on, I ask myself, if I would still wish to continue on this journey in this particular place, in this particular time and space. Somehow, five years ain't that long, yet, it ain't that short either. I had countless memories in these five years. Some of it, I would never wish to give it up, even though it had much pain. I could say, the tears I shed are probably the most worth it ones in these five years.

Much things have come along the way, with the blessings of the One who loves me the most. Yet because of the circumstances and experiences I have, I wonder to myself, of how I should continue to run the race that I am in. Do I wish to change tracks? Do I wish to change the partnerships I have? What is best?

The lure and enticement of other things have seem to come into the picture. What seemed to be a simple, clear cut decision is now clouded by the naggings in the heart of what do I really want? Is this how I wish to live my life?

The answers should come soon, I believe. It's another major decision. What would the next lap of life be like? The journey into the sixth year, seems a daunting one..somehow, I can sense it.